It would seem that I am a student forever stuck in school, eventually I will graduate, and hopefully make something of myself. I love DOCTOR WHO and I LOVE BOOKS and I LOVE LOTS OF THINGS. Lets be friends.
I really wanted my wedding to be simple, Immediate family and friends. no more then like 100-120 people. My father has turned my guest list into a family reunion. I don’t know half the people he’s invited and I honestly think half of them could careless. I really didn’t want a HUGE thing, now that he’s decided who’s coming he’s taken to complaining about my colors, I can’t even say what it is that I want because he makes faces, and when we started looking just looking at catering he’s guilting me about how much it will cost. I wanted to start making wedding favors now so I can have them sent and ready when I get to Texas later. It will be one less thing I will have to worry about when my time gets stretched but he’s shit on that too. I have highly considered not having a wedding. Maybe just having a small gathering, and sending out wedding announcements instead. Saves everyone money, and I wont have to fake smile at everyone and pretend to know who they are.
I feel robbed.
I wanted my wedding to be special, I wanted everyone I love to be there and I wanted it to be intimate. I didn’t even get to tell my family I got married. My Mother did, she told everyone with out asking me first, KNOWING full well I didn’t want anyone to know, till the wedding.
I was denied that and the wedding I was so excited for has become a chore of walking around everyone and not stepping on toes. its fucking stupid. I can just save everyone the money and time and just forget about it. I don’t need it. I don’t want to have to compromise my own wedding because my father has made it about himself, like he always does.
If I dont have the wedding I can just move in with my husband as soon as I graduate from school. It’s even gotten to the point of where we are going to have to change the date.
I am done.